Reluctance & Disorganization

The great state of Delaware got a shout out on the Oscars tonight! That makes me happy.

For the past couple of days, I've been trying to think of what I should write next. Do I continue writing about my characters? Do I start writing about what happens in my personal life? What is it that I'm trying to say here?

I think one of my problems with my blog is that I am reluctant to post short entries. To me, that's not enough. I guess I have to say something important in each post. I don't like writing short stories either. I feel like if you're going to write a story, you might as well lay it all out there and go for the novel. I tend to make things more complicated than they really need to be.

Like my plot lines. I feel like every time I come up with a new idea for my stories, I also have about a dozen questions that need answered or things to look up in order to write a more believable story. Plus, I would be horrible at researching things properly if I ever had time to look things up. So I either need to stop worrying about my story and write what I know, or actually look around for the answers to my questions.

I know I'm complaining, but I love having questions about my plot line. It gives me more to work with. I can look at a page of notes scribbled down and I can figure out what angle I need to get the answers. It's like a dumping ground for all of my ideas. I can look at each question and know what I need to write. Sometimes, when I look at all of the questions together, it gives me the answer. It would be like looking at a counter full of individual ingredients and coming up with something to cook for dinner.

My writing style is chaotic and messy, but it's all I know. Maybe there are better ways to go about it, but for right now, it works. I need to organize my life in general, so my writing will follow eventually. Honestly, I feel like once I can organize my life, it will be easier to organize my writing. If you keep fixing the little details, while the big picture is still broken, the details are just going to crumble again.

Here's to hoping this week goes well.

xoxo